Kedinginan Ramadhan

Haii everyone and very good day

Salam Ramadhan utk you all...Erm at the first, i just want to post only posting that related to my digital media 1 assingment, but rasa2nyer best gak update blog kt ruangan ni...hehe..;))

Today is first day starting a ramadhan...n the worse thing is...aku x bgn sahur utk hari ni...semua ni berpunca dari insomnia yang sedang aku alami....aku pg cari kt google why this happen to me then i get it the point that...insomnia yg aku tgh alami ni because of stress .Ni aku qoate dari google website pasal why insomnia haunted you

"Stress most commonly triggers short-term or acute insomnia. If you do not address your insomnia, however, it may develop into chronic insomnia." OMG!!!! selama ni i'm not realised of this thing can be more serius...i need to think the effective solving that lead me to be in the stress mood...erm ya! aku agak stress sejak akhir2 ni...aku stress because of relationship aku ngan si "s" is not so-so good...and the same time my x-bf start to share his life with me everyday...erm why this happen guys??for my point of view...aku classified relationship aku ngan my x-bf aku is just a fren...coz he's know ya in the relationship with someone else...and sepanjang aku ngan dia...he's not really talk about us..but talk about him n si "f" so it is wrong to intertain him???coz i believe this world is round n like a wheel...dulu i;m always use him as my refrences if i stuck in my personal problem...but know he make me as a refrences to refer any personal problem with si "f".We are totally frenz forever.

Problem with my bf is more complicated...any argument or fighting between us is come from him.Always aku tangkap dia ader affair with gurls..did i'm too jealous?aku pkir macamnilah kn...dulu mmg aku pernah ckp kt dia...aku xsuke kongkong n intrude with his personal life..but bila aku ade sikap terlalu thrust dlm hubungan..is not good,once bila aku tahu he try to do behind me...aku start mngamuk...aku dah siap bg tahu rules kt dia...biar pedih macamner pun story yg he try to share with me...aku akan terima ngan hati yg terbuka...tapi bukan bila ada pihak lain yg bgtahu aku...for me...aku classified kn dia sbg liar..walaupun problem ni dah over...cuma aper yg aku nmpak...hati aku sebenarnya dah tawar dgn dia...jujur aku ckp...aku dah forgive him but i cannot forget it easier...Walaupun dia cakap itu semua kawan dia...n aku pernah bersemuka ngan perempuan2 yg xtau nk jaga batas dlm pergaulan.."senang2 jer pnggil bf aku syg"..tapi aku selalu terpikir...why this people cannot respect hak orang lain...dan aku slalu marah bf aku lg...this is not happen if dia sendiri xmelayan...susah sgt agaknyer...aku xpernah mintak dia ape2..aku hnyer mintak dia setia...lagi satu...aku nk mintak maaf pada my bestfren coz xdpt nk celebrate besday party dia tahun ni...heppi besday to you...tahun ni sy just wish awak jer tu pun through sms...i do this thing because of you...sy dah kena sound baik punyer ngan gf awk.."Tolong tinggal si "h" because your gf xpercayakn relationship kiter yg dah almost 6 years...sy terpaksa rahsiakn semua ni because sy nak tgk awak tetap bhgia ngan dia...n at the same time sy bkn perampas hak orang...cuma cara gf awak sound sy to sedikit kasar n ya...sy akn pergi dari hidup awak "h" n this is what i mean in my sms to you " i need long2 vacation" and the worse thing is..sy dah permanent invisible awak kt ym list sy n bila awak kol sy...sy dah xangkat...sorry not be always beside you dear "h" and heppi besday my frenz...

life is too complicated...erm...aku akan lalui setiap detik ni dengan hati yang redha...pasal si "s" tu...ader jodoh..kita akan bersama...utk my x-bf..kadang2 i think you n your gurlfren is not a match personalities and not much chemistry between you guys...tapi aku xberani nk complain lebih2 sbb at least aku dah selamat dari si dia...kalo tidak dia asyik2 fokus nk couple balik ngan aku...then now aku mula tarik nafas lega...utk my bestfren..."lebih baik diam dari berkata-kata"n i will do anything to see kawan aku sowang ni gembira...hehe...

erm bukak pose ni...kitorang berbuka dgn lauk siput sedut cili padi campur rebung,mee goreng,cempedak goreng n ikan goreng kot...so my target to loose weight 10 kg sepanjang ramadhan ni...doa2kn aku yer...hehe...rindu aku yg dulu...ahaks! ok guys...gtg..n i will update by tomorrow...